For most of my life, I have constantly craved stability and balance. I love the middle. It’s where I sit in class, church, or any other large space full of people. The only center I don’t like is being the center of attention. I am just too squirrley to handle that. Maybe I was meant to be a middle child? Just kidding.

Recently I have been struggling with the idea that the Lord doesn’t NEED me to do his work, especially in my time behind the fence. However, this morning God told me differently. He revealed to me there is a glorious middle ground.

God doesn’t need me to do His work, yet he chooses me for specific purposes. There are people He can reach only through me. There are tasks created solely for my unique skill-set and personality.

I have a voice. But He is the word.

I have influence. Yet it is not for the advancement of my agenda but His kingdom.

I have nothing, yet in Him I posses everything.

I am empty handed, yet have the full power of My creator.

This heavenly dichotomy is enough to make my head spin, but today I choose to believe it. I choose to follow Christ down this road and believe that He is using me. I believe I can be used by him. I know that I was created for a purpose, I was created for more than I can fathom and the Lord is in the midst of preparing my heart for what is ahead. He promises to continue His good work in me until I am complete. Until that day, I choose to be stuck in the glory of the middle, a place between heaven and earth.